Aegis-DoGz-

1.36am....
1st time..
i cnt get into my sleep due to worrying bout all sorts of stuff..
i m so damn nt worried bout money, or my frens, or anyting else.....
EXCEPT my future.....

as u all noe..
i m here, on CNY hols from the sucking, useless National Service..
as the saying goes..
"MALAYSIA BOLEH!!!!!!!"
or.....
i tink it sounds rather more like..
"MALAYSIA BOLEH????"

27th Dec, 2008.. initially d date i shud be reporting myself to camp..
bt as i had booked my travels to perth at an earlier date, i postponed it to 31st Dec, 2008..

earlier on..
after i had applied for the postpone..
went for medic check up..
hoping badly they would check out something..
bt..
most disappointingly, they oni do useless check ups..
in d end, i was given a LAYAK to participate in the NS..
spent me a whole day to do so..
same goes for the AGRO bank..
went there for d 1st time, technical prob since d nite b4..
damn so inefficient..
so had to come back another day..
well, it also spent omos whole day, waiting for my turn..
im nt surprised on d SLOW MOTION of those counters..
d whole room is filled wiv ppl n there are oni 4 counters (wic is wat they oni hav) attending all d customers..
they had a stupid piagam thingy wic states tat they need to attend one customer within 10 minutes..
bt i calculated..
nt 1.. a lot..
exceeded 13minutes..
so, THEY FAILED!!!!!!!!
oh btw.. i went to both these places personally.................

ok..
cut all d stupid stuff..
as most of u oso knew..
i m running the King Scouts scheme..
we had planned to run our expedition during the dec hols..
bt unfortunately, most ppl were unable to take part due to family hols n so on..
so, a new date is set..

i had no news bout d new date..
wat i knew was..
i m so damn gonna go to NS on the 31st..
it was until, during a weekly meeting i attended..
hoong yeee came to me n told me of d date of xpdc...
d date had sunken my heard to d deepest..
31st dec 2008...
i was stunned for quite some time..
my mind remained blank for quite a long time..
since then, i kept tinkin on how i shud face such "tragic incident"..

after tat, a few came to me, askin me on d xpdc, askin for infos, askin for help..
all on d xpdc.. ALTHOUGH i aint goin n i never went b4..
for most of those time, i paused a little before answering them..
deciding whether to accept or not..
bt on all d time, i accepted n helped them all i could..
yea.. they prepared happily (seems happy to me...)..
n i could oni stand aside, nt sure of wat to do..

time passed, i went to singapore..
and then to perth..
i tried to enjoy my time thr..
bt..
the thought of the xpdc still kept "hunting" my mind..
i even hoped that my flight would be delayed and all sorts of things that would prevent me from going to NS..(although it won help......)
arrived back in kch safely..
went to d shang di temple parade..
after tat, i could oni giv them my blessings, then off i go for NS d nx day..
at 1st, i was tinkin of goin to hq on tat morning to watch them depart on their journey..
bt..
in d end i decided nt to do so, for some reasons.... (don ask =.=)

well..
d day i went to NS..
31st Dec 2008..
damn i reli hoped sth would stop me..
n when i arrived, it reli disappoint me..
i tried to "like" this fkin programme..
bt it kept doing stuff wic, makes me feel a lot nt worth it..

mayb most of u will tink tis is a stupid post..
of cz it is..
even me tink tat tis is a stupid n crap post..
bt..
d feeling deep inside..
to look at ur comrades go for some sort of upgrading assessments..
n yet u r being forced to left out n do some stupid n useless n time wasting stuff..
n also d feeling of being LEFT OUT AGAIN..
it is reli a deep wound..
same as the previous one, EXPEDITION..
(don ask if u dnoe, DIAM DIAM if u noe)
being left out from the group aint a nice feeling (guez some of u may noe)
on d 1st time, i was left out..
tat time, i tot tat my Scouting life is over..
bt someone came back to our group, n had gav me a chance..
a new chance to start again..
(tat someone sure noe tat i m talkin bout him)
he helped me n gav me hope in completing my schemes..
i was a step nearer in achieving my goal..
bt now, another obstacle came in my way..
tis time, worse..

wat passed, is past..
cnt change it anyway..
unless i hav a time machine.....
oni can hope tat i can complete d expedition ASAP..
bt..
after calculating........
my worries came..
expedition, self reliance camp, community service.....
i need to complete those in d shortest means of time..
bt..
i oni hav, perhaps a week for d xpdc n self reliance camp..
n most unfortunately, tat week is d week SPM results are out..
which means sholarships are offered, BUT oni for a short period of time..
perhaps 1 week, perhaps 2 weeks..
omg~
tis reli is gonna affect my future..
King Scout n my Career.....
my bday has jz passed, n i had less than 6mths to complete King Scout..
standardization is jz a few mths away..
damn..
reli dnoe wat to do now..
needa manage my scholarship documents n so on......
needa prepare for xpdc n self reliance..
n maybe d rovers scheme (wic is wat i heard from ric..)

well..
d most troublesome will b xpdc..
it can oni b held durin d mid sem hols, wic is on d week SPM results are out..
if it is nt held on tat week, no more time left, UNLESS the school and parents allow my comrades to attend d xpdc during school days, wic is omos impossible..

damn....
regrets..
3k ppl nt taken action.....
shud hav known nt to attend NS n chiong for xpdc instead..
haiz.......